& i was just wondering, what would the world be without me?
then i thought again, since i'm not on this world,
then where would the thought of me being nonexistent exist anyway. nevermind these two.

to be pessimistic; it is actually rather true, that it is possible to survive without a loved one.
but its just a life filled with sorrow anyway, its something like, have you ever wondered if you've never met your bestfriend? everyone does make a difference.

take my first day of school in anglican high for example. i vividly remember what happened on the first day of school; a cheerful girl said hi to me where i was sitting at the corner, with nobody to talk to. she was sitting next to me, and well, most of the time she was even in sectwo i think.

she told me her name was annia, and so i smiled and told her mine.
that was the beginning of a new friendship in my first days of anglican high,
and till now, i still treasure our friendship deeply, really. although we're not in the same class, not in the same cca. but i really like the way how we have recess together everyday(:

and oh where was i? wasn't i supposed to be telling you about some theory of nonexistence or whatsoever -.- forget that i'm in no mood to talk about that.

anyway, if you're also wondering if you make a difference to others' lives..
i'm telling you, you do.



anyway let me continue, i feel really blessed to be a part of 2d'06.
its the most wonderful class i've ever been to, we're bonded and we're mostly close to each other.

we're not the type that ONLY studies or plays.
we do both, we excel in our studies, we're quiet during class,
but out of class, we're the normal rowdy bunch of people for the guys,
and the giggly group of girls. okay, maybe not giggly, its just stereotypical hahha.

and i really love my friends to bits there;
and although we are generally divided into say, four to five groups,
we are still close to each other i say.

annia, alicia, anna, kaiying, ashley and siyun, thanks for being the greatest friends, ever.
isabel, jiayu, thanks for being there for me when i'm down.
erica, liushuang, thanks for being good studying motivators,
mengfei, mabel, jesslin, venecia, prissy, yuenlam, thanks for always having a smile on your faces.
cherine, megan, sheena, jiaying, terie, felicia, gina, thanks for being those enthusiastic people out there.

to those football playing guys, thanks for keeping our class entertained.
thanks liu, jonchia, jongoh, christopher for being the 2dchoirmates,
daniel, eugene, zhengwei, yihao, xiquan for being those funny people around,
george, samuel, edmund for being so crappy, always
chengloon and cheongkai..for being the brothers of destruction hahaha!

there's always a sense of belonging when i'm in 2d'06.
there's always people welcoming me the moment i step into class.
there's always people who are willing to talk to me when i'm down.

i really love that sense of belonging i have there

its this feeling that's lacking in my new class.
i don't feel like i can really really talk to anyone.
okay yeah, the people there are generally nice.
and okay, many people are quite nice.

but its like, maybe we've not bonded or sth lah.
no class outings yet? no nothing?
our class is in a BIG mess.
sometimes i just want to tell the people at the back to just keep quiet.
its super irritating when the first two rows are trying to listen,
then the people at the back make a hell of a noise.
they make the teachers all damn pissed, then they can't teach properly
please just sleep if you don't want to listen,
we're already making a bad reputation for ourselves,
please don't let it get worse and make everyone give up on us.
even if you know all the stuffs, there's always people who don't get things that easily.

and no, i'm not saying we shouldn't talk at all,
its just that, just talk softer at least? or stop laughing and laughing and laughing,

even ms khoo gets damn irritated with us.
seriously. what is this?
nevermind nevermind. yeah,sure.

well anyway, i really hope there'll be a class outing soon.




i hope i didn't offend anyone,
and today was a fine day.


EMMA